Jumping into the unknown
30 Sep, 2015
Making decisions which lead to transformation
I want to apologize for not being my usual chatty, communicative self but I’ve been through a major life transformation. After 15 years of living in Asia and 25 years of living away from my town of origin and family, I made the decision to move back to the UK. Major changes!
I couldn’t have anticipated what a rollercoaster this experience would be and here I want to share my experience, strength and hope with you all. I adore Soul Sanctuaries; I put my heart and soul into the company and really love to help others on the journey to physical health and emotional wellness. With each experience I personally undergo, I add to my ability to help others.
Have you ever felt like you’re bashing against closed doors?
Whatever you’re trying in life and relationships simply isn’t working?
This was my life over the last year. On the surface, I had a fantastic life in Asia; a beautiful villa, great weather and beaches nearby, a fantastic son and friends whom I adore. Yet I seemed to be constantly facing hardships on all fronts; health, finances and relationships. Some days I found life incredibly difficult and although I was helping others find their balance, my own life was getting more painful by the day. On that note, whenever I felt really low, I allowed myself to feel like that, forgave myself and held on to the thought that tomorrow might just be brighter. Sometimes it wasn’t but I gained small comfort knowing that I’d made it through the previous day with love, support and my dignity intact. I also found it extremely gratifying to still be able to listen to others hardships and maintain a place of healing for others.
I felt like I was being drawn back to the UK, but since I love to procrastinate, I kept putting it off. The universe has a way of forcing the issue and my life became so uncomfortable, I had to make a decision. Sitting outside a bank in Bali, I sat with cash in my hand debating “school fees or plane ticket”. I called friends and mentors, desperately trying to pass the decision making onto somebody else. Eventually I made a decision and plumped for school fees, ensuring my son’s further education abroad. It then became apparent over the following week that I felt like I’d made the wrong decision, that it was time to head back to my roots, to reconnect with family and start afresh.
I’d been told that when the path you decide to walk down feels right, the waters part and doors open. I went to my son’s school and told them I’d made a mistake. They graciously refunded my money. The flight ticket to the UK just got cheaper and cheaper. My villa rented out to a beautiful family with ease. They even adopted our beloved cat Lili.
On arrival I had a bumpy start, I’ll not kid you. Being around family after so long, isn’t without its moments. A lot of my old behaviour’s resurfaced. Luckily I have consciously caught myself people pleasing, becoming overwhelmed and trying to fit into others vision of how I should be.
Within two week’s I’d found a beautiful little house and just the perfect school nearby for my son. I have experienced the milk of human kindness. Family members gave their houses and time. People I didn’t even know gave things for the new house. I’ve had positive signs along the way that this was the right thing to do.
Now I’m asking for guidance in how to develop my beloved company Soul Sanctuaries further and spread it’s European wings. With the possibility of offices in both Asia and Europe, I’m feeling like the future of the company is bright.
What have I gained from this whole experience? To follow my heart. I listened to my inner voice, I overcame the fear of making the decision and I leapt into the unknown. And I am supported. I’m still here and I feel like I’m getting back the positive energy I put into life. It’s not always easy, but if you can find small gratitudes on a daily basis, the sun can shine through the darkest cloud.
I want to take a moment to thank all those beautiful souls who helped me personally through this transformation. I love you all. I also want to thank all those fantastic soul seekers who booked a healthy holiday through Soul Sanctuaries. I love what I do and you blessed me with the ability to help you on a journey of health and wellness.
In Gratitude and with a lot of Soul